On a much more serious note, my condolences and empathies (is that even a word? it is now!) go out to those who were killed, injured, and/or lost friends, family members, and possessions in the earthquakes and tsunamis. My heart truly aches for you in your pain and loss. You are in my prayers. Not to be trite, but God deeply loves you. Look to God for the answers to your questions. He is the only One capable of comforting you.